So I went to therapy yesterday.
Very strange.... lol I have never been someone to openly talk about my feelings or admit weakness. Just not me. Repress Repress Repress. Thats my mantra. lol
However, this whole fear of flying thing has taken a hold of my body and I can't take it anymore! I have passed out twice because of it. The only two times in my life I have passed out. Once was at the check-in desk and I am *shocked* that they let me fly. If you watch "Airline" they are pretty strict about letting people on who are not 100% if you know what I mean... The other time was a few years ago and I flat out forgot to breathe and passed out on the guy next to me. He looked right at me and said, "I don't think you are breathing!" I looked at him like he was crazy and then blacked out... (He was creepy and had been flirting with me the whole flight up until that point, then abruptly left me alone after that. *Thank god for little miracles* lol)
So I leave for Las Vegas for CHA Saturday morning. I am flying with three of my co-workers and I was desperate to not look like a complete idiot.
So the Therapist basically confirmed what I already knew. I have Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome. It goes back to 9/11 Not because of the attacks necessarily, but because of my circumstances that day. I was a morning show DJ and news director, so I was reporting on what was happening minute by minute starting minutes after the first flight crashed. My sister and my mother were flying that day as well, on their way to the East Coast. So I was worried about them, worried about the world in general and had to keep my composure for the sake of my listeners. So back to my Repress Repress Repress mantra, I kept in all inside, as is my way, and it has reared its ugly head every time I set foot on an airplane.
So basically all she did was teach me some breathing exercises to keep my adrenaline in check and we will delve into deeper places another time. Yesterday was just to get me on the plane to do my job on Saturday sort of thing... I bought a book called Flying without Fear and a CD to listen to - more breathing things I think. She said if I am 10% better after the flight on Saturday, that is good.
Wish me luck!!
Very strange.... lol I have never been someone to openly talk about my feelings or admit weakness. Just not me. Repress Repress Repress. Thats my mantra. lol
However, this whole fear of flying thing has taken a hold of my body and I can't take it anymore! I have passed out twice because of it. The only two times in my life I have passed out. Once was at the check-in desk and I am *shocked* that they let me fly. If you watch "Airline" they are pretty strict about letting people on who are not 100% if you know what I mean... The other time was a few years ago and I flat out forgot to breathe and passed out on the guy next to me. He looked right at me and said, "I don't think you are breathing!" I looked at him like he was crazy and then blacked out... (He was creepy and had been flirting with me the whole flight up until that point, then abruptly left me alone after that. *Thank god for little miracles* lol)
So I leave for Las Vegas for CHA Saturday morning. I am flying with three of my co-workers and I was desperate to not look like a complete idiot.
So the Therapist basically confirmed what I already knew. I have Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome. It goes back to 9/11 Not because of the attacks necessarily, but because of my circumstances that day. I was a morning show DJ and news director, so I was reporting on what was happening minute by minute starting minutes after the first flight crashed. My sister and my mother were flying that day as well, on their way to the East Coast. So I was worried about them, worried about the world in general and had to keep my composure for the sake of my listeners. So back to my Repress Repress Repress mantra, I kept in all inside, as is my way, and it has reared its ugly head every time I set foot on an airplane.
So basically all she did was teach me some breathing exercises to keep my adrenaline in check and we will delve into deeper places another time. Yesterday was just to get me on the plane to do my job on Saturday sort of thing... I bought a book called Flying without Fear and a CD to listen to - more breathing things I think. She said if I am 10% better after the flight on Saturday, that is good.
Wish me luck!!
posted by Angela at
12:37 PM
4 Comments:
Good for you! I'll be sending good Pea vibes your way!
Good luck and have a great time at CHA...I am so jealous. Stop in when you have time some Friday night.
Trish
so glad to hear you went to see someone. Wish you best of luck and have fun at CHA
Michelle
well, did you make it back alive or what? Come on woman, keep us in the know!
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